TOM KAULITZ
Chapter 6
CHAPTER 6:-
<Toms POV> < move away Tom its Anna’s POV!>
im sorry to say that I don’t think I can move on to Toms POV! Please don’t hit me just yet! < hides behind chair> I CAN EXPLAIN! Okay so anyhow I’ve been thinking about it and I’ve come to my senses that I have to finish what happens to Anna. I cant move on to Toms POV if I don’t…. you’ll understand why later… oh yah and so sleepy right now!!!!! So if this chapter is kinda not OMYGOD that’s the reason why. Ooo BTW song of my day is ‘A Change Of Pace- Weekend Warriors’ dedicated to the weekends! Listen to it I swear you’ll love it! <3-nw oh and sorry it took to long to write this chapter XD ;* <kisses>
My eyes where shut but I knew that my mind was still working; I could still sense my surroundings; and when my bathroom door opened, that made it even clearer to me that I hadn’t fallen into a deep sleep.
“Noochie?” a faint elegant voice said as the mysterious person opened the bathroom door and closed it shut.
I didn’t have to think to know who it was, heck I didn’t even have to breathe.
It was Roxana, my cousin.
Roxi, short for Roxana =), lived in Italy -almost near Venice- and I’ve been in touch with her ever since I remember. <3
Fate is what brought us to know each other, other than blood. XD
She is 15, the same age as I am, and boi was she pretty.
Unfortunately she didn’t seem to realize that, and always felt as though no boy would ever love her or even talk to her; but seriously if I were a boy I would be like all over her! < Seriosly I WOULLD XD lolz>
Yah! I’ve tried from slapping her to sending her threat messages <evil I know!> to make her realize that she IS a someone; a someone that all the guys in the world would die to meet. They just don’t know that yet, but I swear eventually they will.
And come on she must be crazy to think of herself as ugly or whatever else, not to mention blind!
Because everyone is beautiful in their own special and different way. <3
Not only was she beautiful from the outside she was even more beautiful from the inside.
She had so much love to give, so much happiness and life.
She was like an angel dropped down from heaven; I’m actually kind of shocked she isn’t.
A girl like her, who brings smiles, laughter, love and hope into my life, SHOULD be an angel. ;*
She had a soul and a heart that was so pure I could die, hypothetically speaking.
< Reader’s information!:- Whenever I listen to ‘Nine Days-story of a girl’ it reminds me of Roxi<3 >
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I immediately got out from the bathtub and hugged her. <More like squished XD>
I buried my face in her long brown hair that smelled like strawberries, and closed my eyes shut as she laughed.
“YAH! I missed you too!” she said as I backed away from her to get a better look of what I have been missing out.
She still had the same beautiful emerald green eyes that anyone would die to have-just like I did-, her long brown hair hung loose until her elbows as her bangs were cut to the side and were lifted up by a violet clip so they didn’t cover up half of her face; Her face was- as usual- make up free, as her white skin glowed underneath the light.
‘Sheesh! I’m like friends with the most hottest people in the whole of California…’ I thought secretly as I shoved my hands into my jackets pocket.
She wore a Tokio Hotel shirt, which showed off her body real good, and had on some dark purple skinny jeans that went along with black flats that were covered by white hearts.
She was Roxy<3, that’s for sure! But I noticed that she had lost a lot of weight.
“ What happened to you?” I smiled as I asked my soul sister.
“You like it???” she teased me as she swirled around in a circle showing off her figure.
I laughed weakly “ I liked you the way you were… but this is good too!” I said as Roxi gave me the most enormous smile she owned.
‘Adorable!’ I laughed in my head.
“ I’m still the old me! Except more fitter! I’ve been working out you know…swimming and stuff.” She replied with excitement.
I was happy for her.
She had reached her goal and I bet it felt real good. ;D
As long as she had a smile on her face I would live to see another day.
“ If the old Roxi is still in there…”- I poked at her chest-“… I think I can live with this.” I winked at her as I tried to hide the pain that still threatened to kill me from the inside.
She smiled, “O.M.G. I tota-” she cut of her sentence as her gaze slowly left my face to the hand, covered by a bandage that was placed over her heart.
‘ Shit!’ my eyes widened as she took my hand and looked at in question.
I guess the cuts I gave myself were pretty deep because the bandage that I had wrapped around my hand was now soaked with blood.
She stared at me shocked.
Her eyes were wide as the moon when she looked at me.
I couldn’t take her stare it was slowly burning a hole in my face; so I quickly looked at the floor hoping I could disappear any moment now.
I didn’t know if she knew exactly what was hidden underneath the bandage.
I hope she didn’t; but don’t count on it.
She’s like Psychic she can read my mind and only my mind! < Weird. Yah I know. But sometimes we think the same thing and it freaks us both out XD>
She unwrapped the cloth that was secured around my hand.
‘ Don’t hate me Roxi. Don’t freak. Please don’t give up hope on me.’ I thought to myself as she took off the bandage leaving my wounds uncovered and bare for her to see.
My eyes started to tear up as I saw her reaction.
‘ I knew it. She freaked. She hates me just like everyone and everything else in this world.’
I pulled my hand away from her grip and ran out of the bathroom to my bed.
I threw myself on the sheets as I covered my head with a pillow and a bed sheet.
I started to weep again like a baby. =’(
Not because I lost Travis. Hell NO.
I already cried my share of tears for him, and my heart still has his memories and love stamped all over, which BY THE WAY kills me to know that!
But this time I cried because I was scared to loose Roxi<3, and to just see her freak out at what I had done to myself was enough for me to realize that I was better off alone.
‘Her reaction was too unbearable; she looked at me as if I were a stranger she didn’t know.’
‘I don’t blame her though. I don’t even know who THIS freak is.’
Right now I’m not exactly the kind of person to befriend; I wasn’t close to normal at this moment and I know I wont ever be.
‘I knew she would never talk to me again after that. I mean did you see her face? She hates me.’ I shook my head as I thought of this and hoped it somehow would not be true.
I heard footsteps approach my bed.
You guessed right it was Roxi.
She sat down on the side of my bed and began to tug the covers from on top of me.
“Ann…” she mumbled under her breath sounding sad.
I shut my eyes closed.
‘Great not only was I causing pain to me; I was causing sadness to the people I love’ I thought as I refused to take the covers off of me.
“ Anna please?” –She paused as she sucked in a deep breathe- “at least talk to me about it. You can’t just ignore it, or sweep it under a rug.” – She tugged at the sheets on top of me again, and this time I let her take it off. She looked deep into my eyes and right at that moment I saw stars twinkling in her green seaweed eyes <she always had this affect on me. Talk about weird...> She then took my hands- “I’ll always love you no matter what you do to yourself. But it makes me sad to know that you do this… it hurts me Ann it really does. I love you with all my heart and soul, your like my only true friend and your trying to kill yourself?” - Her eyes started to tear up- “If you die, who’s going to tell me about their crazy day on mail everyday?”- She smiled as I laughed at what she had said - “If you go, who’s going to act all high and mental on the TH site thingie and make me type out ‘lolz’ as I crack up?”- I started laughing and crying at this. We used to and STILL DO talk to each other on this TH site; and whenever I’m on it I’m either high or half asleep xD- “Anna? Who’s going to love me if you’re gone?” Roxi finally said.
I exploded into tears as she did too. <So sweet right? <3 >
I buried my face in her shoulder as I cried. =’( <3 =’(
< Author speaking:- What can say?
It was an emotional moment for both those girls.
Yes, it is apart of life!
We all react in different ways to certain situations. Anna and Roxi cried out their sadness over THIS situation.
They never wanted to see each other unhappy, but what IS life without a little twist?
There ARE bumps to the road >>YOU<< are steering on, which -by the way- happens to be your life, mine and the rest of the billions of people living on this planet.
In moments like these we all need someone to comfort us and tell us that everything is going to be alright even though deep down inside we know that everything WONT somehow be the same.
However, as weak as we human beings are we need those simple words to help us build hope… To make us feel somehow better.
As for Anna’s situation her hope was Roxi; so what better way to let the pain all out than with her soul sister Roxi…
ANYHOW, sorry for the inconvenience readers XD I shall now let you carry on with the chapter!-nw >
“ Ill always love you Roxi<3…ill love you forever and always =)...- I pulled away from our hug to give her eye contact and say two words that meant the world to both of us- “I promise” I managed to say through my tears. :’)
After about 30 minutes of hugging, crying and me explaining what happened to me today at school and at the hill; I started to calm down a little, as well as Roxy did.
I washed my face as Roxi leaned on the wall.
“ Oki Doki… so you up for some good news?” Roxi eyed me while she chewed on a gum.
I turned off the water tap and wiped my face as I turned to look at her.
“ Hell yah! But it better be good though! - I yelled in excitement as I threw the towel on the floor- “What do you have on mind?” I asked her as the optimism in my heart made me feel weightless; Thanks to Roxy ;D she wouldn’t let me leave out anything that happened to me today.
And NO it wasn’t annoying, I actually felt really good after telling her everything.
I felt lighter and carefree.
Wait wait but this doesn’t mean I’m totally over what happened to me.
I’m still a little ‘shakey shakey’ but with a girl like Roxy around, how can I still be sad? <3 ;p
“Okay then… but please don’t faint” she smiled as she faked a faint, that supposedly was meant to be mine.
I rolled my eyes as I laughed at her, “ What is it? TELL ME!” I asked eagerly.
“OKAY okay! Don’t you have any patience>?” she laughed out as she looked at some of my CD’s that lay on my dresser.
I placed my hands on my hip and tapped my foot on the floor.
“ Does it look like I have patience right now?” I asked her.
“ Whatevers babe! Anywho” - she yelled as she turned away from my dresser and faced me- “We are both going to Germany together in like ummm”- she looked down at her watch- “2 hours so pack all your TH stuff and lets get a move on it! I don’t want to miss the plane,” she said as she opened my closet and threw some shirts in a bag.
I just stood there shocked of what she had said,
‘GERMANY? TOKIOHOTEL stuff? Waaa-iiiiit why is that good news?’ I thought to myself blankly.
After a few moments of flash backs I had just remembered that GERMANY=TOKIO HOTEL
I ran to Roxi who was searching through my closet for something. “Wait! Isn’t Germany were Tokio Hotel live?” I asked her wide eyed as I grabbed her shoulders.
“ooowwww!!!!!!!”-I yelled since Roxi had slapped me hard across the face- “What was that for?!” I stared at her as I placed my hand on my cheek which was stinging me from Roxi’s slap across the face.
“ HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND?”- She asked me shocked- “DUUHHH its were TH live?!”
It then finally hit me. NO not Roxi’s hitting, but the news she had just told me.
I started screaming and jumping around like crazy.
‘ omigod I’m going to Germany! I can finally breathe the same air as TOM does!”
“yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayay!” I started to yell as Roxi started laughing at me.
“ Man you’re slow at getting it.” She shook her head as I grabbed her hand to stand up.
“ I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!”- I hugged her as I jumped, now making her jump too- “ we’re going to Germany!” – I screamed.
“ I know!!! I know!!!!!!” she screamed as I laughed in excitement.
Suddenly we both looked at each other and screamed our hearts out in excitement because we knew what this meant.
XD ‘ We might be lucky enough to see them!’ I thought to myself.
“OKI, we better stop screaming and save the rest of our excitement for when we actually see them!” - I said to Roxi as I stopped jumping- “Hey? What about your parents? I mean there’s no way they would let you miss school to just go to Germany? I mean what about MY parents? Do they know?” I asked her as I remembered that it was still a school week.
“NAH! Its all been taken care off. Uncle Ben called my parents after he said he messeged you, and since you didn’t answer him he thought that you’re phone got stolen or something… I don’t exactly remember…”- she shrugged- “but anyways… He was talking to my parents on the phone for like hours. “- She rolled her eyes as she waved her hand at his reference-
“After that my parents asked me, you know, if I had anything important in school; any exams or anything, and I told them that I didn’t have anything important planned up for the next 4 weeks! “- She clapped her hands as she was all smiley faces- “Anyhoo! They then told me that I was going to go to LA to visit you for a day, then the both of us would travel to Germany to see uncle Ben.” – she paused a moment to remember something- “Oh and your parents already know bout everything and they agreed!” - she smiled- “You’re parents were the ones who bought us the first class tickets to Germany”- she smiled excitedly as she pulled out two flight tickets to Hamburg, Germany from her black vintage bag.
‘ Woah! This is happening fast’ I thought to myself as I remembered the text I had gotten from my uncle ages ago.
I felt guilty for not replying to that message and totally forgetting about him.
“Are yah gunna stand there all day or are you going to help me?” she pointed at the bag she had stuffed my cloths in.
“Whoops sorry…” I said as I kneeled down on the floor to see what she had stuffed for me in the bag.
“Hehe were you day dreaming of Tom?” she laughed as she nudged my arm.
“Yah!”- I laughed as my eye, for some reason, twitched- “I was trying to figure out what slick moves of mine i should use in order to ‘rock’- I made air quotations- “his world in bed” I winked at her as we both exploded into laughter.
After about 20 minutes I was done packing my stuff; which actually surprised me.
I had so many things I wanted to stuff into my bag but Mizz Roxi here was all ‘No, No. Not that.’ So I couldn’t bring everything with me.
Sad I know… =’)
“ Imma get ready! Its already 10pm. – I looked at the clock that stood on my table- we’re leaving at midnight right?” I looked at Roxi who buried her head in some magazine.
“Yup! Yup! 12.00am sharp! I already booked a cab for us like hours ago… he’s coming in another”-she looked at her watch- “40 minutes. I hope you don’t need any longer than that!” she said as she looked at me from across the room.
“HEY!- I threw a pillow at her- “ whatever loser! XD” I laughed off as I grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans, a black TH logo shirt, a blue jacket, and my pair of blue-black checkered vanz.
I ran into the bathroom to change as quickly as possible, hoping to prove to Roxi that I didn’t need FOREVER to change.
After I put on all my clothes -trying to avoid staring at the stitches Travis gave me- I straightened my hair a bit, since it was all WILD after all the crying, pulling etc.
I then put on some foundation to cover the faint black circles that started to form under my eyes, some black waterproof eyeliner and mascara -yah I’m kinda’ getting myself ready just incase my water taps decide to leak.
After I put on ALL that, I pitied my purple eyeliner that was begging me to put on; so I added on another layer of purple on top of the black eyeliner.
I LOVE all my eyeliners and do not want them to feel left out! XD
<I know I’m such a good person! >
ANYHO after all that was done, I packed away all my makeup and got out of the bathroom set and ready to go!
“ ROOOO-XXXII! IM DONE!” I yelled into Roxi’s ears since she faked a sleep on all my magazines.
“ OH LORD! I thought you wouldn’t come out from there!” she said as she got up and straightened out her clothes. “Well doesn’t somebody…”- Roxi pointed at me-“look as though they’re about to screw the rock star of their dreams.” Roxi said as she analyzed what I wore.
“ Burn!” I laughed out as she smiled wickedly at her joke.
“Lets get outta’ here” I grabbed my bags, wallet, phone-which I still had kept off- and all the other millions of stuff that were important, kicked Roxi out of my room <LOL>; FINALLY got down our endless staircase; got out of the spooky house I lived in and ATLAST locked the doors while Roxi talked to the cab driver.
“ That was fast.” I said to Roxi as I stuffed all the bags in the cabs trunk.
“Yup that’s what you get for booking a cab 8 hours before departure.” She replied to me with a smile as we drove off to the airport.
“Germany awaits us…” I mumbled excitedly under my breath as I squeezed Roxi’s hand.
************ 8 hours later********************
“eeeekkkk!”- Roxi exclaimed as we got off the plane- “I’m going to vomit!”-Roxi held her stomach- “O.M.G. this is it!”- She held her hand up as we walked to the terminal to get our bags-“Tokio Hotel here we come!”
I laughed as I shook my head.
Yes, it was like that the whole time on the plane.
But it wasn’t torture; I actually loved it when Roxi was all excited it made her do so many stupid stuff, which happened to make me laugh.
I AM excited too…really I AM.
I know you can’t tell… but I really am excited! <NO SARCASM used here!!!!>
Infact, I was so excited throughout the whole trip I was thinking about someone.
Guess what I was thinking of the whole time on the plane? Just guess! I wont say…;D
You guessed right!
I was thinking about >>TOM<< <3 his perfect skin, his perfect dreads- or whatever he has now-, his perfect eyes, his luscious lips, his blonde/brown hair-which now is dyed black-… XD
However, for some reason whenever I thought of Tom, Travis’s face would appear in the middle of my thoughts and ruin the whole ‘day dreaming thing’; then eventually I would be all sad again, but I managed to hide it since I didn’t want to ruin this whole trip that Roxi was looking forward to.
“Omigod this thing’s heavy!” I yelled as I grabbed Roxi’s bag from the rest of the luggage.
“ Who the hell did you stuff in there” I asked her as I placed the bag on the trolley, laughing at my comment
“ So not funny Noochie.” She punched my shoulder as she gave me “the eye”.
We walked away from the luggage terminal and were taken by surprise by a cold wind.
“Sheesh” I shuddered. “Its cold here…” I mumbled under my breath as I zipped up my jacket.
“Tell me about it.” Roxi said as she pulled out a grey “Billabong” jumper and put it on.
“Did uncle Ben tell you what time he was going to be at the airport?” I asked her as we exited the terminals and was about to step out of the airport when Roxi screamed,” OH MY GOD!”-She ran to the humongous poster of bill that was stuck on a shops window- “HE’S HUGE!”
I laughed as she speechlessly entered the shop.
“OH great” I laughed under my breath as I followed her quickly, into what seemed to look like some bookstore.
“Hi” I greeted the saleswomen who sat behind a huge desk and was reading a newspaper.
“Hey” the woman said as she lifted her head from the newspaper.
I quickly searched the room that was filled with books and magazines in every corner to get a glimpse of where my cousin- Also Known As- my Tokio Hotel soul sister.
“Oo there she is.” I mumbled to myself as I spotted Roxi drooling over some posters, which I guessed must have been pictures of BILL<3
“ Did yah find anything?” I asked Roxi as I looked at what she was holding in her hands.
When she didn’t answer my question, I placed a finger under her nose to check if she was breathing.
“HEHE^^’ you still alive?” I laughed as I hit her on the shoulder hoping she would snap out of the spell she was under.
“Ann!?”- Roxi grabbed my hand and shoved the poster at my face. “Look at this!” she handed me over the TH poster.
“Yah I know its Tokio Hotel Roxi… Buy the poster if you like it so much” I waved her off as I was skimmed through a magazine.
“NO! Noochie! Look Tom and Georg got in some accident…” she half mumbled and yelled, still under some spell.
I froze.
My mind stopped working; I stopped thinking.
“WHAT!” I yelled real loud as I grabbed the poster that she held.
I saw that at the bottom corner of the poster there was something written.
I read it to myself over and over again in my head, just to grasp the fact that all this that was happening RIGHT NOW was real.
“ Lead guitarist Tom Kaulitz and bassist Georg Listing, from the famous rock band “Tokio Hotel”, got in a car accident last night. The boys were on their way to a new mall that was situated near their apartment, in their hometown Germany, when all this had occurred.”
I shook my head as if this was all some bad dream
“ROXY! ANNA!” someone grabbed me and Roxi in a group hug that almost killed both of us.
We both looked up at the stranger who was suffocating us…
“Uncle Ben…”” we both mumbled underneath our breaths as we tried to grasp the fact that what he had both read was all real.
“How’d yah guess we were here?“ I asked him while I put the poster back on the shelves since he grabbed our hands and urged us out of the store.
“ I came in to search for you both, since I kinda’ got worried that you guys wouldn’t show up”- I looked at his other side and saw that Roxi look up at me with worried eyes.- “ So I came in here looking for you both”- he tighten his grip on our shoulders when he said this- “then I saw some big poster of Roxi’s lover stuck on that store, so I figured you guys were in there.” He said as he pulled out his car keys now that we were infront of his big red jeep.
Uncle Ben is a good person.
I loved him as well as Roxi did; but sometimes he could be such a pain.
He is 25 and single.
I didn’t really know why he was single; he had all the looks and the body that any “Abercrombie and Fitch” model had, and still the ladies tried to avoid such a person like him.
Our UNCLE never behaved like an UNCLE.
I swear to you.
He made us feel as though he was just another stupid dumb teenager that just was stuck in a middle-aged man’s body.
He can be VERY childish A LOT of times for a 25 year old, and that can really make you feel sorry for him.
He worked in a record label… I didn’t know what the labels name was since I guessed that the bands they sponsored were pretty lame.
Uncle Ben wore a black “Guns and Roses” shirt that went along with VERY baggy jeans that showed off his “zebra” striped boxers.
Ew I know right? Buuutttt he IS my uncle, so what can I do?
Roxi and me got into the car still shocked over what we had read, as our uncle GENTLY-being sarcastic here- put our bags in the car.
I didn’t believe what I just read.
I didn’t want to believe all of it at all.
NO WAY WAS I GOING TO.
Suddenly, Roxi put her hand on my arm.
I looked at her.
‘Man she’s worried too…’ I thought to myself.
“Ann”-she held my hand- “he’s going to be okay…THEY are going to be okay.” she mumbled under her breath as I placed my head on her shoulder.
“I hope so Roxi…I really hope so.” I said as I began to play with the tons of different bracelets she wore.
“SO?” -Uncle Ben panted as he closed the jeeps door after he had put our stuff in the back- “You guys traveled heavy” he smiled at us from the rear view mirror as he pulled away from the airport.
“ I think your talking about Roxi.” I smiled as I lifted my head off her shoulder.
“UGH!? Whatever ann.” Roxi smiled as she crossed her arms across her chest.
“Haha, I see you guys haven’t changed at all.” Uncle Ben laughed as he looked at us from the rear view mirror.
“Look who’s talking? You’re the one that’s been dressing like some 17 year old since like what? FOREVER.” Roxi cracked up in laughter as my Uncle just smiled and shook his head.
“ Anyways! So what is the urgent thing that brought me and Roxi to the beautiful streets of Germany?” I asked my uncle as I watched the buildings and trees we passed by.
“Oh…”- he mumbled as he scratched the back of his head.
I lifted my eyebrow as I looked at Roxi.
“Whats up with him?” I whispered real low so he couldn’t hear us.
“I ‘unno… its uncle Ben cumon he’s always all weird and goofy. So who knows?” she shrugged as she pulled out her I-pod and plugged in her headphones.
A few minutes-or more! - passed by, and still my uncle hadn’t answered the question I had asked him.
“umm Ann...”- My uncle said as he broke the silence- “We’re already here so I guess I better say.” Uncle Ben had parked his jeep in front of a big building.
Me and Roxi stared out the window at the tall building.
No, It wasn’t Tom and Bill’s apartment. XD I wish it was I really did;
Instead it was a hospital.
“ A hospital?” I turned away from the window, as I looked at my uncle in question.
Roxi took out her headphones quickly so she wouldn’t miss out a word on anything he was going to say.
“Yeah…”- he turned around from the front seat and faced me-“Ann a couple of hours ago your brothers girlfriend, Lilly, she got in a car accident.” He said searching my eyes.
I stared back at him speechless.
‘wtf!!!!!!!’ I thought to myself as Roxi looked at me then back at my uncle.
“I’m sorry I didn’t say anything before I brought you guys here and I know its almost 5 am in the morning”- he said as he pointed at the digital watch while I just stared at him mouth wide opened. Roxi gripped my hand and squeezed it since she knew that this was too much for me to take; especially after what happened to me back home. My uncle paused as he searched for the right words. - “… But…seriously your brother needs you…he’s losing it…he doesn’t eat, sleep, talk to anyone anymore, he doesn’t even SHOWER anymore after what happened; he said he wouldn’t until he killed the guy that had done this to Lilly.” Now that my uncle was done explaining he gave me a few minutes to absorb it all in.
‘ My life just can’t get any better than this…’ I asked myself sarcastically.
I was too numb to understand…
I didn’t know how to react; I didn’t know what to do.
“Ann’s…please. Calm down.” Roxi said as she knew that I was going to loose it again.
I closed my eyes shut.
‘Don’t let them see you cry. Don’t let them see the other side of you. Shove it down Ann. Don’t loose it again, not in front of Roxi’ I thought to myself.
I opened my eyes and took in a deep breathe even though I knew that my brother was going to loose it because he might have lost his one and only love Lilly.
I tried to stay calm; I just had to.
I noticed that uncle Ben looked terrified and sad when he said, ”Do you wanna go see him now”- he pointed at the hospital- “or if you want to, we can come back later… I know its hard for you taking it all in; but its life Ann. Its just how things work.”
I nodded back at him.
‘It was how MY life worked… no one had to face so many sad things in one day, at least not anyone I knew.’ I thought weakly to myself.
I knew that sooner or later I had to see what happened to Jack and Lilly, so why stall it, its not like the pain will disappear if I did try to avoid any of this.
Roxi held my hand tightly when we entered the hospital building.
‘ She cares so much’ I thought to myself whenever I looked at her face.
We got into the elevator as my uncle pressed a button to the third floor.
I looked up at Roxi, “ I’m here for you no matter what Ann. I’m always here for you.” She said trying to comfort me.
I faked a smile back at her, and shifted my stare from her face to the elevators reflecting doors.
‘TING’
The elevator doors opened, and my heart began to pick up an unhealthy pace when I saw the person from my dreams.
The person I should have not felt love for but hate.
**************************************************************CHAPTER 7
Chapter 7:
Hey guys. I thank all those who read my chapters so far I hope they were realistic and not too dramatic. I would especially like to thank roxi< X] >, moony, swati!, Jesse and those others whom I emailed my story to –whom were the only people I knew that gave me instant feedback about the story so far- and I would love to thank all YOU out there who read it.
Anyhow again I’m very sorry it took like “FOREVER” for me to finish the 7th chapter. Its just cause you know finals are coming up and I kinda’ am having some “problems” I have to deal with….
So my apologies for all those who were waiting for this chapter to come out! I love you guys so much-even if I don’t know half the readers but I still love yah guys!-
I hope you enjoy this chapter very much!
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à<Toms POV>ß
“Get away from me! I have to see if they’re okay!” I yelled as I managed to get up from the hospital bed without falling flat on my face.
I walked half way through the room before I felt a knife stab through the side of my stomach, which sent a shock of pain throughout my whole body.
I winced as I tried to contain my surprisingly strong posture, even though I felt like bawling from the excruciating pain burning my sides.
“Tom! Stop torturing yourself they will be okay. “ –Bill grabbed my arm and tried to pull me back to the bed-“…Just get back to your bed, and stop worrying about them.” I ignored my brother’s plea and shrugged him off as I limped towards the door.
“TOM! STOP IT OKAY! Get back here.” I heard Bill yell as I exited the door and examined the hospitals hallways.
It was filled with either sick or injured people.
A little girl, whom looked about 7 years old, in a wheel chair passed me by.
She had no hair on her head and looked very pale. Her almond eyes twinkled under the lighting as she gave me the brightest, widest smile no seven year old could have owned.
I smiled back at her trying not to look sad or anything.
I noticed she had a teddy bear tucked in at the side of her wheel chair; she reminded me of me and Bill when we were just kids about her age.
We both had these two teddy bears that looked exactly alike; so every night before we went to sleep me and Bill would make sure whether or not we had the right teddy bear with us. < You know if I accidentally had Bill’s teddy instead of mine or the other way around.> And if Bill thought that I had taken his teddy bear on purpose he would get all mad and would hit me with his oversized pillow.
Yeah I know. It sounds harmless but seriously it wasn’t.
I shook my head as I escaped the nostalgia I drifted into as the little girl clutched her teddy’s hand tight and waved at me when the nurse whispered something in her ear.
It’s amazing how kids at that age can be so strong, so self contained and so sure that something or somebody is watching over them.
I snapped out of the emotional moment I was having and got my head back in the game, but when I heard the elevator doors open my mind lost its place and drifted into heaven as I saw the person who was in the elevator.
“Wh-a-t?” I stuttered as I saw the girl who was in my dreams this morning or was it yesterday? I couldn’t remember and could care less right at this moment when she was at least 7 inches away from me.
I paused as I examined her.
She looked like she had just escaped hell; but she still was able to make my jaw drop at least 2 inches down.
She stared at my face blankly as if she had no words to say that could describe the way she felt right at this moment.
“Ann? Cumon’ we have to go!” the girl standing next to her said as she grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the elevator; a middle-aged man followed them holding the back of the girl who was from my dreams.
They began to walk towards me; I wanted to move my feet and runaway.
I didn’t know why but I had this feeling that she knew me, that she knew the other side of “Tom Kaulitz”.
As the two girls walked my way, the other girl standing next to who I thought was Anna-the girl from my dreams- gasped as she saw my face.
I smiled half heartedly as I knew that she probably knew that I was from the band 'Tokio Hotel'
‘Guess, we have fans everywhere. Even in hospitals' I thought to myself as I shook my head trying to get a grip of myself.
I mean I was just about to go check on Georg and that girl and here I am fantasizing about a chick from my dreams.
It was sort of weird seeing a girl from my dream; but I was happy to know that she really did exist. <Thank you lord! >
They walked by me and the girl I was attracted to kept staring at me even though she had already passed me by.
As the wind blew from one of the open windows her scent hit my face and I shut my eyes as I breathed it in.
“TOM! What the hell are you standing in the middle of the corridor for?” Bill yelled as he finally got out of the room I was in.
I’m guessing the doctor was lecturing him on something, well whatever it is Bill sure looks like he's going to take it seriously.
“Bill please man I have to go see them.” I looked into Bill’s eyes with the puppy dog look that always worked on him so he couldn’t say no to me now.
“*Sigh* ‘kay fine! But will you at least put on some pants or something before you go to see them. Because seriously I think you would kill that old lady..."- Bill pointed at the 60 year old women whom slouched like a hunchback -"... if you walked in front of her like this."-He pointed at the back of the hospital robe I wore that was wide open from the back revealing my ass.
“Fuck!” I half screamed and whispered.
“Why didn’t you say anything before” I gave Bill 'the eye' as I tried to hide my behind by standing in front of a wall.
“haha! Sheesh. Here put these on..."-Bill shoved at me some clothes- "...I’m waiting for you out here okay. Even if your not supposed to be walking until 2 days I’m cutting you some slack and letting you walk early.”
“Thank you maam, but this still doesn't mean I'm forgiving you for this." I snapped as I took the clothes Bill handed over to me and got into the room to change.
I took off the hospital robe and quickly slipped on the baggy jeans Bill shoved at me.
When I was about to put on my shirt I saw that the side of my stomach was blue.
I got close to a mirror and examined the bruise.
“Man that looks ugly.” I whispered to myself as I touched it.
“SHIT. Shit. It fucking hurts me too.” I pulled my hand away from my side as a shock of pain overwhelmed me the minute I touched the blue bruise imprinted on my side.
I sighed as I slipped on an “Akedmiks” shirt, and slowly limped out the door, since my sides started to hurt me again.
“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH” Katie screamed as she ran to hug me.
‘Man this girl is strong, I wonder how Bill will survive once he has sex with her.' I thought as I waved at Gustav who stood up from a chair and smiled at me.
“Losing feel of body here.” I smiled weakly as my body began to hurt me from Bill's girlfriends hug.
When I thought that Katie had done punishing me with her Guinness world record killer hug she came at me with how much I’ve been worrying them.
“You ASSHOLE! You got all of us scared to death! Especially your brother!"–She shrieked as she slapped my shoulder making me wince in pain- “NEXT time you wanna go out pick out a better driver than GEORG!”
“Hello to you too Katie.” I turned away from her and began to nag on Bill's head again.
I pulled at Bill's arm almost a bizallion and a half time’s until he actually turned away from the conversation him and his girlfriend were suddenly having.
“Okay, okay Tom! Ill take you now just stop tugging at my hand, its gunna' break off any second now if you keep on doing what your doing” Bill said as he shoved me in front of him to the room where I guessed the girl was.
“…She’ll make it. I know she will.” I heard a girl whimper on someone's shoulder.
It was her.
She was crying as she hugged someone. It was a guy.
'Hah and I thought she were single. Man I’m so unlucky.' I glared quietly at the girl and the boy who were hugging each other as if their life depended on it.
“Anna I cant stand it. I cant live without her. I can’t breathe till the second she opens her eyes and say my name…” the guys said as he was about to cry.
'So apparently he isn't her bf.' I sighed in relief as I coolly snuck my hands into my pocket.
For some reason I felt like I was eaves dropping on a conversation I wasn't supposed to be tuned into but I couldn't help myself, and that all changed the minute Bill pulled me into the room I now dreaded to be in.
I was now the center of all attention. I was shark BAIT. OH HAHA
----->[SKIP THIS IF YOU DONT LOVE ME. < Readers note: YES! I have unfortunately been watching 'Finding Nemo' like a million times due to my little sister *tugs at hair* i seriously memorized all the lines of the movie from how much she MAKES me watch it. Anyways, that’s all I wanted to say LMAO. I'm sorry I keep cutting you guys out in the middle of the good parts; I just LOVE it when I communicate with my readers. ANYHOW! Carry on me homies. -nw> :]
“Ehhm” Bill cleared his throat as he dragged me into the dim lighted room.
“I’m sorry to disturb you but my brother wanted to see you.”
Bill shoved me in front of him as I smiled awkwardly at his English accent.
'Screw you Bill. Some way to help your brother out.' I stared at Bill then at the group of people whom didn't know what was happening.
I wanted it to stay that way.
I didn't want them to find out what I had done.
My eyes shifted from around the room and landed on what i could swear was a miracle.
She was lovely. Not hot. No.
“Hot” isn’t the word I could and would use to describe her.
She was just lovely. Beautiful. Incredible.
Then it came to my senses; she is going to know what I had done to this girl. She is going to know that I didn’t save her life even if I could have in some way, and when she does find out, she is going to hate my guts inside out.
I didn't want her to know.
I didn't want THEM to know; I wanted to run away but I couldn't.
I had to be honest and faithful about what I was about to say and I had to stop being so damn in denial cause it seriously was getting on my nerves.
“MINI ME’S, shut the fuck up! You guys are driving me nuts here.” I yelled to my conscience. <Of course not out loud; everyone in this room would think I’ve gone mental if I did curse out loud to the two annoying midgets in me. Hah dude just imagine if I did, it would be some moment. >
The girl was crying now looked up... she moved away from the guy that she was crying on and gazed at me as though I were flawless, as if I were an …angel…
‘Pshhhhht.ME?! A freaking angel? Gosh I must have hit my head real hard back there, because there is no way on earth that I could ever be close to a miraculous creature such as an angel.’
When she looked up at me this unexplainable feeling exhilarated me.
I have seen the *bluest skies*
Rainbows that would make you cry,
I have seen *miracles* that moved my soul. People that have made me whole. I have seen days that changed my life. I have seen the brightest star shine like a diamond in the night. I have seen all this and more, but I've never seen a face more beautiful than *hers.*
Her eyeliner was all smudged up under eyes making her ocean light/blue eyes swallow me into a deep inescapable hole. Her eyes were what stood out the most to me.
They were sparkling under the lighting as tears blurred her vision.
Her light/dark brown blonde hair was messed up but somehow still had that adorable touch to it. It was begging me to touch it; but I couldn't since you know I don't know her. YET.
Her nose and cheeks were blood red from all the crying she had been doing but that only made her pale light skin appear lovely for some reason.
She was holding the guys hand; and when she turned to look at me. She somehow smiled to me in her eyes.
' Jeez she smiled at me then looked away. What if just maybe that smile meant something she couldn't say...Oh quite dreaming Tom." I thought slyly to myself.
But I knew that wouldn’t last long once she found out that I was somehow responsible for what happened to the person whom I think she cared about.
“Tom! Say something” Bill whispered at me as he pinched my back.
I hit his hand and gave him a dirty look.
“Hey..."-I lifted my hand up and half waved-"... my name is Tom Kaulitz..."-‘wtf so lame, they probably already know who you are you idiot.’ I thought sheepishly to myself. ‘okay.okay.okay. I am going to continue what I started to say even though I wish I were an ant right now, so that anyone could just step over me ad get my humiliation and misery over with.’ -"... and I just wanted to check on how she is doing"- I pointed to the girl who lay in the bed.
I HOPED and PRAYED that my English didn't sound as bad as it sounded; since I never really paid attention in English class.
“Why does it concern you if lil’s is okay or not.” The guy whom was about to cry snapped at me like a viscous alligator.
‘Shit’ I thought. ‘hah if I tell him I bet I wouldn’t live the next seconds of my life.
“um..."-I searched for the words that would try to not sound so cliché but I had to just come forward with what I had done-"...I'm sorta responsible for what happened to her."
I saw flames rage in his eyes.
Any second now I swear he would’ve been on top of me ripping my head off.
I shifted my vision from her to him, hoping that she didn't take the news as harsh as he did. I was hoping to see her smile at me again but unfortunately she didn't.
I saw sadness in HER eyes.
Tears filled up her eyes making them look like the deep and somehow blue sparkly ocean, I knew she wanted to yell at me so bad; but denied to let it all out.
Her pain dropped on her cheeks and quickly wiped it away as she looked at me then Bill wandering and hoping that we didn't see her sadness exposed.
“You…did this to my only love?” the guy half whispered.
I stared at him.
HIS love?
Lord, I almost killed his love.
“I'm so sorry. I swear to god I am, I didn’t know that she was your girlfriend.“ I mumbled.
“MY GIRLFRIEND? You think she is my GIRLFRIEND! Dude she's my fiancé!? The only person in the world to whom I could relate to!”
Now I was sure he was going to rip my head off.
I was ready to grab Bill's hand and pull him in front of me for protection just incase he decided to attack.
“Jack?"- The girl from my dream whispered to the guy who I guessed was called Jack- "...your engaged?”
“Anna…I wanted to tell you. But I didn’t know when was the right time. I mean we were engaged for a really long time now. I just never had the guts to tell you. I mean I didn't know if you liked Lilly that much to accept the fact that I am and will get married to her.” He mumbled as he stared at the floor.
I looked at her.
Anna?
What a beautiful name.
I smiled at her hopping she would notice but unfortunately she didn’t.
All she looked at right now was HIM-“Jack”-
Anna just stared at him blankly.
There was no expression on her face.
She was unreadable.
Unpredictable.
Unexpected.
I wandered why Jack didn’t tell her he was getting married to this girl. I bet Anna would be okay with it; but why hide it from such a girl like her.
“Man she’s beautiful.” I thought to myself.
“What the hell are all of you trying to do to me?” she squeaked.
I jumped at her sudden yell.
Bill nudged me as he whispered in German, "Didn't see that coming did yah big boy?"
I rolled my eyes at Bill's comment and replied back to him, "keep your damn comments to yourself no one wants to hear them, not right now when all this is happening.”
I knew she was about to cry so badly. I couldn’t stand seeing anyone cry.
So I stared at the ground the whole time this was going on.
Don’t ask why, but I just did.
“Wha-ah?” Jack asked as Anna got up.
“Ann…”-the girl in that was sitting on the chair got up and rushed to Anna’s side-“...clam down hunny, I’m sure your brother had a good reason to why he never told you.”
“BROTHER?” me and Bill said at the same time as we watched the drama play out in front of us.
‘Now I see why she’s taking this really seriously.’ I thought to myself.
“Roxana…please” Anna mumbled under her breathe as she gently pushed her friend away.
“ Everyone’s doing everything without telling me until the last minute as though I was just some piece of last minute shit…”-she was now crying- “...screw all of you to hell. I hope god never forgives you for what you’re doing to me” she screamed as she ran out of the room hitting Bills shoulder.
“Ow.” Bill mumbled.
I could tell that he felt sorry for Anna and wanted to chase after her; but if he did it would be too awkward since he really didn’t know her much.
“Anna!” Roxy screamed as Anna ran out of the door.
I wanted to follow her too. But I couldn’t since {A}}àI barely knew her. {B}àMy stomach sides were aching me. {C}à If I moved Jackie boi here would rip me into a million pieces.
It stayed silent for about 5 minutes, and I knew that it would go on unless someone, ANYONE, said something. So I decided to be the better person and say something to break the whole awkward silence momento.
“I’m sorry man I really am. I don’t know how to apologize. I know that my sorry doesn’t mean a thing. I know that it cant bring back time and erase what happened.
Jack just shook his head, as his cheeks turned a darker shade of red, and I swear I could see steam come out from his ear.<toot toooot!!!>
He walked right in front of my face to the point where I could smell the coffee he was supposedly drinking.
“Get the hell out of here before I cut you to pieces” he said to me so crystal clear.
I gulped.
Now that he was so close to me he looked like some macho lebro. <don’t know if I spelled that right.>
I didn’t know what to do or say so I just stood there speechless, wordless.
“Hey dude all my brother is trying to do is apologize! Be nice and accept it” Bill said, as I knew he was getting angry,
“oohhh dude. Cat fight gunna happen I can just feel it.” I thought to myself.
“HEY FAG! Why don’t you mind your own business unless you want to get your face rearranged?” Jack said this time even angrier from before.
“JACK! STOP IT! Just cut it out.” Roxy yelled as she go pulled Jacks arm away from his sudden approach to my brother.
“Mind your own damn business.” He said as he pushed her away.
“YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND?! Do you? Your so called fiancé is dying, your only sister is going through a rough time and YOU don’t even care. All you ever want to do is fight, get into trouble... “-She paused panting as the tears began to fill up her pretty emerald green eyes. -“… And blame the problem on someone else. I don’t get you. I don’t get why you’re doing this to her.” she starting crying really hard.
“Hey. Shhh. Its okay.” Bill said as he rushed to her rubbing her back and calming Roxy down.
“Its okay hunny forget him okay?”
‘Wtf Bill? Are you trying to get yourself killed?’ I asked him in my head.
Bill gave me this look that said,” I know what I’m doing so shut up” as he hugged Roxy calming her down.
“GET AWAY FROM HER!” Jack pulled Bill away from Roxy and threw him on the floor.
“STOP IT!” Roxy screamed at the top of her lungs as Jack pulled Bill up from the ground and…
[*Boom.Boom.Pow.Ow.Shit.Ow.Wtf.Hell*]
à[Crash.Bang.Boom= severe PAIN!]ß
I didn’t know what happened next. One minute I saw Jack in front of me the next I saw him on a wheel chair.
“What did you do to the guy?” I asked Bill as I speechlessly stared at Jack who was sleeping like a beast in a wheel chair in the corner of the room.
“I gave him a taste of his on bitchy medicine.”
“Dude his girl is probably dying there and you just beat him up.” I stared at Bill noticing that his cheek was blue.
I’m guessing that jack got him too but not as much as Bill got Jack.
“Hey he was being really mean. Plus he started it.” Bill said as I noticed Roxy curled up like a ball, head in between her knees, listening to music.
“Hey are you okay?” Bill walked away from me towards Roxy and sat next to her on the floor.
She nodded to him and gave him this really cute smile, suddenly they were engaged in a conversation that they were obviously VERY into and at that moment I saw something different in Bill’s eyes.
I laughed to myself, and shook my head as I walked away leaving them happily intensified in their conversation.
I grabbed a chair and sat next to the girl who lay on the hospital bed.
“God I’m so sorry.” I whispered to her.
I sighed, buried my head in my hands and *intensified* myself in my own random thoughts.
'I need someone that can really love me; accept me for who I am and not what people see me as. A person that can never ever lie or backstab me. Someone whom I can talk to share my crap with, someone like Anna. I wander where she is… hah even if I did know she probably wont want to talk to me." I thought to myself as I felt the urge to get up and walk alone somewhere. Anywhere.
I never really noticed how beautiful hospitals were. Maybe because I’m either half knocked out or bruised real bad when I am transferred to one to even noticed. But now since I felt AàL0nely. Bà and a little better I could finally notice how pretty they tried to make this place. How hard they tried to cover up the pain with simple materialistic things.
The walls were painted a brighter shade of peach and sand.
Flowers were placed everywhere in bright colored vases trying to bring love and life to those who needed it.
I randomly walked through the reception and got easily through the front doors of the hospital exiting the whole building.
"sheesh anyone could escape this place if they wanted and no one would even notice.” I said to myself quietly.
I strolled around the small garden that was built in front of the hospital.
At first it was peaceful and refreshing but then I got sick of seeing sick people<oh the irony> so I walked until I found out that I was in the hospitals underground parking lot.
It was kinda’ creepy under here, but hah Tom Kaulitz baby is never scared of shit! <Okay well maybe some stuff freak me out but I can act tough cant I?>
*Cough*
I heard a light and faint cough coming from somewhere in the parking lot.
Then I heard faint whimpers. I’m guessing it was some sort of dog because the sounds that I heard sounded really awful and sad.
‘Maybe some really hurt animal?’
The sound I was hearing could even pass as a girl begging for more. [If you know what I mean?]
I scurried through the parking lot in search of where the sound had come from.
I paused.
I froze.
Okay okay! More like died on the spot.
She was lying on the back of some cars trunk all shriveled up into a ball.
She was sleeping.
Crying.
She cried herself to sleep.
My heart tore apart as I saw her. <3
She really was being left out from everything; and it affected her real bad.
She tightened her grip on her arm trying to warm herself as she began to shiver.
I looked around the parking lot, in search for anyone else that might have seen her here.
I sighed and climbed into the back of the truck next to her.
I lied down next to her side, careful of not touching her not wanting her to wake up or notice me next her. So she wouldn’t slap me or anything.
A tear trickled down the side of her cheek hitting in between her lips.
My hands suddenly but slowly touched her face wiping the tear away.
She was irresistibly tempting.
She moved.
'Please don’t wake up’ I thought to myself.
She relaxed a bit and suddenly her hands moved from on her arm on top of my chest.
'God? She doesn’t know I’m next to her right?' I thought to myself blankly as I slowly put my hands around her waist.
I stared at her flawless face.
Her pale skin seemed to glow under the light as I pushed back a couple strands of hair that fell on her face.
I breathed her scent in.
Never would I forget it, since it was different from any other cologne or chick scent I’ve breathed in.
In some way it had her personality attached to it.
I sighed as I continued to analyze her face.
Flawless. There was nothing I could point out that made her look bad.
She was a miracle.
I could feel her heart beat as she moved closer to me.
Her heart must have been taken advantage a couple of times before to the limit where her heart beats weakly.
I searched the trunk for something that would make her feel warm, since her lips started to turn a light shade of blue.
‘aha!’ I thought to me. I grabbed a red blanket that was neatly tucked at the side of the trunk and opened it up on me and her.
I swear I thought I saw her smile; But I guess I was just dreaming because who would want to smile at me?
I accidentally brushed my hand over her jeans pocket that was when I felt a piece of paper brush against my hand.
The paper was halfly sticking out of her pocket, as my curiosity arose I pulled it out gently hoping she wouldn’t notice.
When I pulled it out of her pocket a pen fell, thankfully, silently. I grabbed it as she moved her hands off of my chest and turned around so now her back was facing me.
I got up and leaned my back against the truck as I silently opened up the crumpled paper.
Words overflowed my head; words so simple but so elegant and deep.
This was what the paper read
à[READERS NOTE: please don’t copy paste this part to someone and claim that its yours. These words came out from my own personal life written on paper. So please, if you do want it just let me know at least. Merci and enjoy.]:
“I am small. I am fragile.
I am broken.
You think I’m broken? So fix me.
Shape me. Mold me. Breathe life into me. Create me. Change me. Make me. Breathe me. Take me.
I am so very alone.
That’s only because I turn myself into that. I let myself be that way.
To me, the most things that start to make sense happen when everything else doesn’t.
I love you so much.
More than anyone, more than myself.
Do you know that? I guess not. Who would bother to even notice anything that ever happens to me.
I am too small. I am too fragile.
I am too damaged. I am too weak.
Is there something wrong with me?
Because I cant see…
There is no one else I can give myself to.
Not like this.
There are only, or there were several people that knew me this way.
But those people are long gone, at least in my mind.
All that is left is you.
But will I make you happy?
Am I enough for you Tom Kaulitz?
Am I good enough?
I hope I am. Ill try to be.
Don leave me.
I love you.
And only you. “ (noochie)
<3
As I folded back the paper, I was speechless.
I didn’t know what to say.
Should I have anything to say after reading those words? You tell me.
So lets leave it at that.
My eyes were getting heavy, very heavy.
I didn’t know whether or not I really had some good rest in quite a while; but now was a good time to leave behind the world and its problems and just sleep next to a stranger I had secretly fallen in love with.
Yes, this may be cliché to you; but isn’t the word like that anyways?
You can say “this is all crap” but haven’t you ever had this feeling where you saw or met a person that made everything just ‘click’?
A person that made you feel wanted, loved, needed, and most importantly a person that made you feel like you can be yourself.
In front of her I knew that I didn’t have to fake it, I could be myself around her.
I can and could show her the fatigue and scared side of me.
She was that person that made everything in my life at that second ‘click’.
Everything felt like it was supposed to be that way; the whole “me and her in this parking lot at this moment of time all felt right”, it felt like fate.
I faintly smiled as I lied down next to her and closed my eyes.
This was the moment I was waiting for.
The moment I dreamed to happen.
This was the place I wanted to be now and forever as long as she was in my hands. In my heart. In my grip.
This felt like home. The home I’ve been searching forever.
She felt like home.
Now that I had her to hold I was never going to let this angel go.
I am never going to let her walk through this world all by herself. I had her even if she didn’t know it.
I drifted into another universe.
A universe where I had her.
The universe that never existed in my life, until this moment.
The moment I will hold onto forever. The moment I wished I could pause forever.
That moment was this moment.
The moment with her.
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